Yahooo! I have had myself locked out of my blog for almost over a year!!! I have finally figured out what I have done wrong! Sooooo much to catch up on. But short of time at the moment!

It's been awhile....

Well here goes another effort in the blogging world. I have been away for a while. Every time I would sit down and try to write I would get a feeling that there was no point. Despite my cheerful attitude 24/7 I can get quite discouraged sometimes. Do you ever feel like you are alone in a room full of people? Sometimes I do. Went to bed early last night,@ 8, and woke up @3 this morning, grabbed my Zune player and headphones and sat on the couch and started to listen to some random music. Some "It's a Beautiful Day", some "CannedHeat","Beatles", "Steppenwolf", "Fleetwood Mac", "Chris Tomlin", "Jars of Clay", and others. I came across two songs I'd like to share, one by a band called Rachel Rachel (Not a misprint, Rachel twice). The name of the song is called "I will stand by You" from the Way to my Heart album. Some of the lyrics go like this....

"I been feeling uninspired, no matter what I do
This road is long when you walk alone, I'm surrendering to You.
Maybe we can make a fair exchange, I need a miracle, a change,
And I promise where ever you lead me too ,,

I will stand by You
And You will guide me all the way,
And at the end of every day
I'll lay my body down to pray,
I will stand by You,
And You will lead me through the night,
Giving me a second sight,
Showing me a inner light.
I will stand by You.

You waited patiently,
While it took me time to learn,
You were watching over me, knowing my heart would turn.
You're the one who stopped the rain,
You gave my strength to face my pain,
And when I'm afraid, don't know what to do

I will stand by You
And You will guide me all the way,
And at the end of every day
I'll lay my body down to pray,
I will stand by You,
And You will lead me through the night,
Giving me a second sight,
Showing me a inner light.
I will stand by You.

I will stand by You
And You will guide me all the way,
And at the end of every day
I'll lay my body down to pray,
I will stand by You,

And this soul is finally free,
Finding You I found the key,
To lead me thru eternity,
And You will stand by me."

Ok that was the whole song, not just a lyric or two.
But what an awesome promise from God that we stand by Him, He will stand by us. God will never walk away from us.

The other song is by The Barlow Girls, called "I need You to love me."
One verse says this..

"I, I have wasted some much time, pushing you away from me,
I just never saw how You could cherish me,
But your a God that has all things,
But You still want me!"


How awesome is that? Think about it, the God of this vast universe, who is the maker of all things big and small, wants you. (and I). That ought to get you pumped up.
I asked for direction from God several months ago and clearly got it. I am asking God now, what's next, I thinking I'm ready.

Pray for me.

Can't write on this day, (Feb 15th) without mentioning my mom, she pasted away 9 years ago today. I love and miss her very much. We will celebrate her life again at my dad's house this afternoon after church. I blogged about her several months ago if your interested, it should still be somewhere on this blog.

Hello again, I have not blogged for a while and I guess it's time to blog or blog out! I guess every time I went to my blog I saw the ones I posted @ the election and was reminded of how upset I got and how my words just could not convey what I was truly feeling. But, time to move on. God is in control, right? We have been in a series at MH's called Let it Be Christmas. One of the reasons that I love MH's so much is that are not afraid to step out of the Christian box and use medias and illustration that for years have been banned as "going to hell" stuff. Like "secular" music, and in particular rock and roll music and heaven forbid, Beatles music! I mean wasn't John Lennon that said that The Beatles were more popular than Jesus Christ! A statement that he apologized for over and over again, knowing that it was a self uplifting and a arrogant statement. But do you know what was more horrible than the statement itself. The fact that it was true. Sorry, I know I just horrified everyone, but we have to face the fact that there are a lot of things that student aged kids are more into than Jesus at that time and still today. We need to change that one student at a time. We need ideas that change not only the mind of students, but their hearts also. I can change my mind all day, from one thing to another, several times a day. But to change a heart, Ahh, that's forever! That's what we got to do, change hearts, not minds. Jesus said that where you heart is there your mind is also. Notice which is first, the heart. Any way back to the services....

I am a huge Beatles fan, I must admit, quite humbly, that I have forgotten more about The Beatles than most other people know. It was really awesome to hear Rodney sing Yesterday the first week, see the Eleanor Rigby video the second week, can't wait to see what they will do with HELP this coming week and wrap it up with Let It Be on the 20-21st. Music team leaders, if you read this and your planning to actually play Let It be, PLEASE use the album version, the guitar solos really kick in that version.

Did you know that the original name for Yesterday while it was being composed was called Scrambled Eggs? Also, George Martin, the Beatles producer, was worried because that was the first song that only had one Beatle on it. No other Beatles was involved in writing or performing the studio version of Yesterday. This was the beginning of the seperation of the Lennon/McCartny team. Did you also know that HELP was a song that was written by John to cry out for help because he could not handle the fame and fortune and the problems associated with fame anymore? Like most actors and musicians find out.This is what drove the Beatles out of the lime light and into the studios. Did you know that the lyric in Let it Be that says "When I find myself in times of trouble mother Mary comes to me, speaking words of wisdom, Let it Be" was not taking about Mary Jane, a slang word for marijuana or the Blessed Virgin Mary as previous thought, but was simply remembering words that his mother, Mary, spoke to him as a boy. She died, as did Johns' mother did when they were @14 years old. John also has a song about his mother, Julie, on the White Album. You should check it out someday. Just beautiful.

So I thought that a little Beatle trivia would be nice. I look forward to finishing the services and as always look for what God has to say to me thru them. So, Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year, lets hope it's a good one, without any fears.

Nice piture of the kids and grandchild, eh? Or that's how I see it anyway.

I guess it's me....

I thought I had a pretty good handle on what "should" be important to us in the past election. I guess I was wrong. It seems that the only ones who have the right to their own opinion are the ones who agree with the "Mainstream".

People have told me again about not being able to legislate morality, the abortion issue. I really wish someone will explain that to me. Is murder, and I am not talking about abortion here, a moral issue or a legal issue? Is not murder illegal because we as a society have decided that murder is morally wrong? Stealing? Is that also morally wrong? Forgive me, I'm confused!

Should not the chance of challenging Roe vs Wade been at least a consideration for my vote.

I went to the "website" and seen that our President elect.."Barack Obama understands that abortion is a divisive issue, and respects those who disagree with him. However, he has been a consistent champion of reproductive choice and will make preserving women's rights under Roe v. Wade a priority as President. He opposes any constitutional amendment to overturn the Supreme Court's decision in that case." source change.gov website of the president elect.

I'm still confused. A woman's right. I suppose he's talking a woman's right to choose what to do with her own body. Still confused though! A pregnant woman walks into a abortion clinic. Has an abortion. Comes out with every part of her body that she walk in with. Correct? Only thing missing is the baby that was in her womb. it's dead. Woman's choice to do with "HER BODY" as she chooses. Dose not sound like her body at all. Someone help me here! I'm so confused.

You look at the "Whats the most important issue that America faces" polls that you see all the time and the right to a life of a unborn baby is not there. Money is. Health care is. The Iraqi war is. Global warming is. I wonder why. Oh that's right, you cannot legislate morality. But I'm still confused.

I'm not a educated man. Barely made it out of high school. But I still believe that God will judge this nation one day for the disposal, (I tried to use a political correct word here, but I'm gonna change my mind and call it what it is,) the killing of it's unborn baby's. I am not a political person. Could not wait till the election was over. To get rid of the ads. One thing I did notice though was that they all were for the "Children", as they should be, but only the ones who were allowed to be born. But I guess that's just me. I'm feeling lonelier and lonelier on this issue, or at least that's how I see it.

So Obama has won, or so it seems at 10:30 Tuesday evening. My heart is heavy. Would McCain of been a better choice? For the things that I hold important? Yes. In this day of economic uncertainty, stock market crashes, insurance needs, etc we, as a country voted for the one we felt would fix these issues, forgetting the things that he will bring along with it. Last week a classroom of grade school children in San Francisco took a field trip to the court house to witness a gay marriage of two women. Get used to it. We could of placed McCain in office and he could of appointed 4 justices to the Supreme Court Bench and hopefully challenged Roe vs Wade. Watch the babys fall now. Watch your 2nd amendment rights wither away while crime in the streets increases. Someday only the criminal will own a gun. Coming soon. Watch as the godless East and West coast media and entertainment industries invade middle America. Bringing with them there way of life with no values. values that contradict the Law of God. Watch the Oprahs and the Gary Mahers come out of the woodwork. Watch as he weakens America's defense and leaves us open for more 911's. Watch as he abandons policy in support of Israel and she stands alone. Watch as he sides with Islamic Regimes. Listen in the next couple of weeks as these militant groups voice their approval of "America's" choice.

I feel as down as I ever been. America has sold out their moral stability, which was very weak anyway, for economic prosperity.

God help us, God forgive us. I have never been a doom and gloom type person but my discerning heart is breaking tonite. Breaking for our future, which dose not seem very bright, or at least, that's how I see it.

Impact day....

Which was about a week ago actually. Had a blast. I always do! Was some talk out there that maybe our efforts should of been focused elsewhere. Know what I say? That talk don't amount to doodly sqat! (Whatever that is) Where else besides the schools can you minister to almost every family in the Valley at the same time. I had to go back on Sunday afternoon to finish some painting at the Middle School at AV and I brought my son Ricky, have you meet this boy? He is the bomb !!!! That's his picture at the top. Any hoo, he heard that his playground was cleaned up of all the grass clumps and leveled out somewhat. He had to go up and see. He was excited. He was amazed at the work. He was ministered to!!! Beside where else can you paint a floor, conquer bubbles, distribute "sprinkles", and discuss personal hygene all in 5 hours. And to my co-painters, they came (the bubbles ) we met the challange head on and conqured! Thank you, Lord for allowing me to be a part of MH's Impact Day three years running.

Time.........

Time...it's a constant thing.....10 seconds has past since I started to type.....it keeps going. i cannot stop it. Lets try. On the count of 3 lets stop time. 1...2....3Oh there it went. The 1...2...3... come and went. We could not stop it. Sometimes I wish i could. I want to stop it, get off the ride for a second and take a look around. See everything standing still....timeless. During the fearless seris we were asked in our final study at Lifegroup, what were we afraid of running out ofthe most. Answers looked for....money.....goods.....friends....and my answer....time. Several of us had this answer My greatest worry about running out of something, was running out of time. Time to do what I need to do. Time to raise my two little ones. They are 9 and almost 6. Time to see my grandaughter get married, have children. Time to do God's will. I pray for time everyday. I pray not to waste time. I want time to relax. I want time to work. I want time to work for me. I have in the past wasted many years of time. Time away from God. Time not putting others first. Time being selfish and greedy. Time being insensitive. Time worring and not adding a single moment of time to my life. Bible says our time is but a vaypor that is here today and then blown away in the wind.

I ask you to pray that I use every second of time in the best way that I can. For God, for my family, for my friends, and for His church. Pray with me....

Dear God, help me and all that pray with me to use the time that we have left in this world for things that are pleasing to you and benificial for those who we hold dear to our hearts and even those we do not know. Our lives are Yours, use them for your glory. In Jesus name we pray...

Thank you, till next time...